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Cathy's avatar

Really vulnerable here: I'm praying for an answer to provision. Whether to tap into my 401K or wait for Him to reveal how I will earn a living writing and encouraging His children.

Chris McKinney's avatar

Hi Cathy. Praying for you and your situation. Writing can be such an uphill battle, but I know that God will provide for those He's called to this work.

Cathy's avatar

Thank you Chris. I just wrote about releasing to receive and just realized that the message was for my heart as well. I release the fear of lack so that I make room for His provision, in His perfect timing. Thank you for your prayers.

Salvation Journey's avatar

This definitely speaks to what I’m going through right now.

Lene's avatar

Timely! 😓

J. L. Gittens's avatar

Thank you! I am in a season where I constantly feel like I might be making the wrong choice in every small decision I make. I literally feel like my days are crawling forward because I'm so afraid of "What if I really did hear God in this," even when I got confirmation and peace. Doubt, fear and worry still speaks.

I was apart of a Christian band which I left, because I kept hearing God say leave. I wrestled and battled with the decision and even now after I've left, I've wondered if I made the right choice.

I brought it to God multiple times, prayed for peace, and firmly decided, that this is what I need to do, and now I have no idea.

This entire year has felt this way, huge decisions, small choices, and worrying that I didn't actually hear God and I made the wrong choice.

Now I seek to get more advice but now it feels like I'm hinging my faith on other people's word and not trusting if I can hear God for myself without fear that I misheard again, or the enemy sowed that thought.

There were many times I was certain, and yet still it fell flat. And as the year ends, I keep thinking I've lost so much time.

Now, the hardest thing for me is to trust God and that is all He is asking of me, to trust Him.

Every word feels heavy, and every instruction makes me want to flee. Now I question everything and even when I pray, my thoughts say "are you sure?" I feel like I'm in a constant battle to trust God, and trust myself that I know God. I just really want peace and to fully, fully trust Him. That's all. I'll do my best to follow what you wrote.

I'm tired of dancing on the knife of indecision. I want to be bold and courageous, even if I'm uncertain, because I am certain of the One who guides me.

Have a wonderful day.

Chris McKinney's avatar

You're welcome! BTW - I totally get where you're coming from. I guess my question would be, "What did you learn in those experiences?" Nothing is ever wasted in the Kingdom. So my prayer would be: what lesson do I, or do I need to learn, to move forward into the next season of growth? Trust is something that doesn't come naturally, but is worth every moment of struggle if it brings you to the place of complete trust in the One who holds the world in His hands.

J. L. Gittens's avatar

Thank you Chris!

Kathleen Moran's avatar

Your article popped up this morning during my final debate (w self) about whether to keep my ovaries or not! Haha. What a Spirit-speak! You’re going to get your coffee, Pastor Chris!🕊️😏

Chris McKinney's avatar

Isn't it crazy how God uses these Substack articles at just the right time? Thank you so much for reading.